Week One: Why?

"What? Do I really look like that? How utterly embarrassing?"

These were the thoughts running through my mind when I looked back at the photos from my recent trip back home to Australia. There was one photo in particular that shocked me the most and I will attach it here. I wouldn't normally publish such an embarrassing photo but I really want to face the reality that is the incredible weight I have put on.

I've decided to ask myself a series of questions every week (or probably every couple of days just to keep myself motivated!)

Week One: 
Current Weight - 65kgs
Goal Weight - 58kgs (size 10)
Weight Loss to Date - 0kgs

My top 5 goals:
1. Lose 6kgs/return to a size 10
2. Go to the shops/cafe without feeling like I need to buy something sweet
3. See photos/myself in the mirror and not feel 'frumpy' or 'bulging'
4. Feel energised and positive
5. Understand how to change my lifestyle so this isn't just a craze


What I look forward to:
At the moment I look in the mirror and I see my stomach bulging over my jeans. I am embarrassed to take my cardigan off because you can see where my fat is desperately trying to escape from all areas possible. I can't wait to put on my jeans and not feel like they are pinching me at the sides. I want to be able to wear clothes this summer and not feel too big to wear them.


What makes me nervous:
I think other people might react negatively to this drastic change of diet. Some might make me feel like its a con or a joke. Others might try and tempt me to give up. I don't look forward to the cravings and possible lack-of-sugar-headaches. I'm nervous about going out for coffee with friends and being tempted when I see them eat cake.


What I am finding difficult:
Understanding what has sugar and what doesn't. Do I cut out fruit? All of it? Is that healthy? Do I really understand what I am meant to be doing?


What I enjoyed:
I loved the Avocado and Goats Cheese Toastie today. It was so yummy! I also added some left over roasted sweet potato and it was fabulous! Another fabulous recipe I discovered was Sweet Potato and Chickpea tortillas (photo below). The food is so good you forget it's a diet!