Week Three: Flat

Week Three: 

Current Weight - 61.5kg
Goal Weight - 58kgs (size 10)
Weight Loss to Date - 4kg


What I am finding difficult: This week hasn't been amazing. The thing is, I'm not craving what I thought I would. I don't feel like "Wow, I need chocolate" or "Pleeeeeeease give me some ice-cream!" The weirdest thing is that I'd really like some fruit! What? Who would've thought my first sugar craving would be for fruit! I really miss it.

Markus nearly chucked it all in. He wasn't losing weight like he wanted to, he was irritable, grouchy and feeling rubbish. Seems like I have joined him now. I don't feel like I want to quit quitting sugar, actually I'm really passionate about staying this way for life now! I just don't feel right. To be honest, that could be down to a severe lack of sleep or the fact that I haven't been to the gym this week. I guess when you throw all those things together you get a fairly ordinary feeling.

What I enjoyed:Hmmm...

Week One: Why?

"What? Do I really look like that? How utterly embarrassing?"

These were the thoughts running through my mind when I looked back at the photos from my recent trip back home to Australia. There was one photo in particular that shocked me the most and I will attach it here. I wouldn't normally publish such an embarrassing photo but I really want to face the reality that is the incredible weight I have put on.

I've decided to ask myself a series of questions every week (or probably every couple of days just to keep myself motivated!)

Week One: 
Current Weight - 65kgs
Goal Weight - 58kgs (size 10)
Weight Loss to Date - 0kgs

My top 5 goals:
1. Lose 6kgs/return to a size 10
2. Go to the shops/cafe without feeling like I need to buy something sweet
3. See photos/myself in the mirror and not feel 'frumpy' or 'bulging'
4. Feel energised and positive
5. Understand how to change my lifestyle so this isn't just a craze


What I look forward to:
At the moment I look in the mirror and I see my stomach bulging over my jeans. I am embarrassed to take my cardigan off because you can see where my fat is desperately trying to escape from all areas possible. I can't wait to put on my jeans and not feel like they are pinching me at the sides. I want to be able to wear clothes this summer and not feel too big to wear them.


What makes me nervous:
I think other people might react negatively to this drastic change of diet. Some might make me feel like its a con or a joke. Others might try and tempt me to give up. I don't look forward to the cravings and possible lack-of-sugar-headaches. I'm nervous about going out for coffee with friends and being tempted when I see them eat cake.


What I am finding difficult:
Understanding what has sugar and what doesn't. Do I cut out fruit? All of it? Is that healthy? Do I really understand what I am meant to be doing?


What I enjoyed:
I loved the Avocado and Goats Cheese Toastie today. It was so yummy! I also added some left over roasted sweet potato and it was fabulous! Another fabulous recipe I discovered was Sweet Potato and Chickpea tortillas (photo below). The food is so good you forget it's a diet!

Week One: Gym

Protein Shakes. Lycra. Sweat.

Walking in to the gym for the first time since Alex felt like walking into a club for cool people and I had a giant, neon sign screaming "LOSER".

I hate that first moment when you return to the gym. All the men are built like Mr. Strong and the women look gorgeous in their tights, amazing make-up and gorgeous hair. I swiped my card and walked in to the main workout area and it had all changed since I'd been there last. I immediately just wanted to fit in but it seemed that all the machines I knew how to use were taken. I lingered around the water cooler until a bike was free then hurried over trying to look like I do this all the time.

This. won't. stop. me! Bring it.

Week One: Start to Cut Back

I am addicted to sugar. There you go, I said it. Now to face it. 

It is so easy to blame being flabby on having recently given birth to a little baby. I did. To be honest, having a baby does take your body through a crazy amount of change. But too many people use it as a huge excuse to remain overweight. I would easily sit down with a packet of mini eggs or even a jar of Nutella and consume the lot. "Oh but you burn 500 calories a day Breastfeeding!" I definitely justified my crazy habits but really it is just a deep, set, addiction to sugar. Enough is enough. 

My close friend, Nat, suggested I go on an 8 week detox to rid sugar from running my life. She said she has never felt so energised and happy. I'm about to embark on an 8 week challenge to see whether all this fuss is worth it.